I will never study again.

Correction, I will never study SO HARD again -.- I mean, I spent hours and hours studying for my music school exam and I got an 8 from 10. argh! So I studyied so hard just to get a crappy 8 ?! I'm so fucking pissed off .

Well maybe my bad mood comes from the lack of sleep and a constant headache. I need a vacation, seriously. My bro was so spontaneous today. He just bought the tickets and went to Stockholm with his girlfriend... I wish I had gone with them, of course hidden in they'r suitcases, or else they wouldn't let me ;)

10 minutes ago I found out that there will bea chemistry test tomarrow. Oh what ever, I'll just read through the topic before the class starts, like always.

*yawn*

I kinda finished my Ryuzaki picture.. but it came out as crappy as ever. I'll try to make it better and then someday I'll post it here.

I'm so tired that I can't even write anything decent here :D I guess I'll just go to sleep then..

Oyasumi!
Maarja.

Gay parade and first thoughts.

So the story behind my title, is that when I walked to the music school, a group of guys walked towards me. So I thought what ever. When I passed the group, I saw another group of boys and after that another, and my first thought was "Is today a gay parade?".
When I came back from the MS and I crossed the river, I saw 3 doves on the shore and one of them was putting his/her head in to the river. My first thought was "That dove is trying to do a suicide..."
Okay, obviously I'm too tired to even think straight :D
The "pre-exam" was an epic fail. I messed up so bad and my fingers were so stiff, that I couldn't play the fast places right. Oh well... whatever.
I have another exam tomarrow. In music school again, but this time, NO VIOLIN! *yayy ^^* I have to learn 50 classical music pieces and the composesrs by heart. Tomarrow the teacher will play us (on the stereo, of course) 10 of them, and I have to write what's the title and who's the composer. I think that it will go great ;)

Desperate to draw.

It's tuesday night, 23:15pm. I should be sleeping by now, because I have a... I guess I can call it a pre-exam (though it's not actually a word -.-') with violin tomarrow.It means that I have to play my final exam pieces. It includes 2 concerts and a lullaby. I know that it would be okay, since they only watch if I can get to the real exam, but I'm still nervous. Funny, when I have to perform with my violin, I'm always extremely nervous, but when I have to act or sing in front of people, everything's ok.
I just watched a bunch of Mark Chrilley's videos on youtube, and now I have a big urge to draw Ryuzaki from death note... in a cute chibi expression saying "That's MY cake" ^^. I have it all planned in my head, but because I'm not such a good drawer, then I'm probrably gonna mess up. Oh well, I have to practice :) I wanna draw now *rowr*! but I can't afford it. I need my good night sleep. Haha like I could really have one. My cat.. well, kitten, likes to wake me up by slapping me in the face with his claws. Ouch! And then my mother.. oh boy. My room is on the second floor and beacuse I'm terrible at getting up in the mornings, my mom has to shout "Maarja, wake up!". Then I yell back "Yeah yeah!" but she doesn't hear me, 'cause she's often preapearing breakfast. Then she shouts again "Maarja!" and then I have to run to the staris to tell her I'm awake. Sheesh..
Uh I guess I have to go to bed anyway, or else I'm gonna start drawing and I can't stop 'til it's already morning ;)
Oyasumi!